Gideon said to God, “If you will save Israel by my hand as you have promised—look, I will place a wool fleece on the threshing floor. If there is dew only on the fleece and all the ground is dry, then I will know that you will save Israel by my hand, as you said.” And that is what happened. Gideon rose early the next day; he squeezed the fleece and wrung out the dew—a bowlful of water.
Then Gideon said to God, “Do not be angry with me. Let me make just one more request. Allow me one more test with the fleece, but this time make the fleece dry and let the ground be covered with dew.” That night God did so. Only the fleece was dry; all the ground was covered with dew.
I can’t imagine how scared Gideon must have been. As he began to piece together the practicalities of what God was asking him to do–raise an army and fight the dreaded Midianites–can’t you see him just shaking his head? At every turn, he must have questioned his own sanity. At every new step forward, he must have needed new assurances. Don’t we all?
I tend to think of God as a general: He gives the orders, and His minions are supposed to follow. But, I’m learning very slowly that that’s not how He works at all. He cares deeply that the work we do outside of ourselves reflects the work being done within us. He’s not in the business of pouring us out like pitchers. Instead, He’s filling us from the inside out so that we naturally overflow.
He’s not going to get angry with me if I keep coming to Him like Gideon did. Every time I return to God for reassurance, He bolsters me. He prepares me. He fills me up.
So even if you wonder how you can ever ask for more reassurance from your Heavenly Father, ask.
Even when you know He’ll just turn you away, ask.
And even when you should be filled up and certain, but you’re not? Ask again.
Just keep asking. Keep going back.
He’s in the business of filling.
He’s ready and willing to fill you to overflowing so when your day of battle comes, you’re ready.
Keep on asking until you feel ready.
Keep on asking until you’re flooded in the assurance that can only come from Him.
Go on, Gideon-heart. Ask.